Category: Abuse


MY mother told me something the other day I have to admit, It blew me away.

I've been processing it for days Trying to find a way to equate it in my mind

We all know there is a difference in the levels of wrong stealing bread to feed your kids Stealing for profit and to get away with it.

Now you are probably going to think that I have been dumb but what I was told has made me numb.

This is what She said to me "I can't believe you were raped when you were three!" "Their counselor told them to ignore it and just let it be!"

I had only known I was molested before, so what I had been told rocked me to the floor.

Then to push me out their door? say I was bad and I can't live there no more?

For days now that new knowledge will not let me be. It's been so hard to even sleep.

I should have realized this years before but there's a DIFFERENCE in wrongness as I stated before!

how could I have been so dumb? why does this make me so numb?

Yes I had been raped through out the years but at the age of three? how can that even be?

MY mother told me something the other day I have to admit, It blew me away.

I can't seem to get it out of my head I can't seem to find my footing With all of this.

Trying to find a way to equate it in my mind I just can't seem to make the knowledge stay in line.

I’ve felt a lovers kiss

upon my lips. Tender arms

hold me tight.

but I do not know what love is.

I have had two kids.

Don’t know what love is.

I have been kissed and choked

in the name of love.

I have been beat. kisses on my feet.

But don’t ask me what love is.

I’ve hid knifes when I laid at night

All in the name of love.

I have lived in Lies

and under hooded eyes.

All in the name of love.

Can you tell me?

For……

I’ve felt a lovers kiss uopn my lips

but I don’t know what love is.

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again, delving into my past.