Category: scared


I just don’t know

Filed under: Children, dispair, family, Illness, Love, luna's world, luna'sworld, lunawitch15, Poetry, scared, sorrow — 9 Comments
June 25, 2011

I fell
on my daughters 17 birthday
all I could think was no way
no way.
not today.
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I am trying not get on the pot
i really am trying.
or I don’t know
maybe I’m not.
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My daughter had to take care of me
on her birthday.
and I just want to say.
it sucks.
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Its just her and me
again you see
she’s been up
for over 24 hours
yup.
taking care of me.
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again.
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So I am looking around
for a shining light
knowing its gotta come from within
but i think that maybe
its gone aground.
I’m too tired
I’m growing thin.
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maybe its the pain talking
I just don’t know
but I AM the one who should
care for her
taking care of me
how can she grow?
I just don’t know.
I just don’t know..
I just don’t know….
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Let it be

Filed under: Abuse, family, Friends, fright, Health, Illness, Living, Love, luna's world, luna'sworld, lunawitch15, scared, thoughts — 7 Comments
June 2, 2011

My arm is bruised
“my gosh are you abused”
No, not anymore.
~
“But you have a black eye!”
yup and it is a silly reason
as to why,
so stop looking at me with dread!
~
Everything is in your head
~
“But…”
No just stop!
I mean it! I wouldn’t lie to you!
You were not there when it WAS true
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Now i am just sick
Put down that phone!
I mean it!
“well I think your laying it on
a little thick. Sick? humph!”
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I remember the times
I had to hide
behind my hair
or under the stair
but that was a long time ago
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It was someone else
I had to fear
not him, do I make myself clear?
~
You need to know this
and I am sorry but it’s true
My heart is bad now
and there is nothing
anyone can do.
~
Do not be afraid for me
because I am finally happy
and I am used to bruises now
that appear if I shed a tear.
~
“But what about him?
He is so big! I am afraid of him!”
Oh silly, he is big this is true
but he can carry me
when I fall without a first clue
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He is big enough to hold me
in arms that won’t let go
when my body tries to fail me
and when I walk real slow.
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I know I look okay
in fact I do look good
but trust me dear
it’s a facade
a falsehood.
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So do not be afraid
of the marks you see on me
all is well in Mialand
so please let it be.

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