Tag Archive: heartbreak.


MY mother told me something the other day I have to admit, It blew me away.

I've been processing it for days Trying to find a way to equate it in my mind

We all know there is a difference in the levels of wrong stealing bread to feed your kids Stealing for profit and to get away with it.

Now you are probably going to think that I have been dumb but what I was told has made me numb.

This is what She said to me "I can't believe you were raped when you were three!" "Their counselor told them to ignore it and just let it be!"

I had only known I was molested before, so what I had been told rocked me to the floor.

Then to push me out their door? say I was bad and I can't live there no more?

For days now that new knowledge will not let me be. It's been so hard to even sleep.

I should have realized this years before but there's a DIFFERENCE in wrongness as I stated before!

how could I have been so dumb? why does this make me so numb?

Yes I had been raped through out the years but at the age of three? how can that even be?

MY mother told me something the other day I have to admit, It blew me away.

I can't seem to get it out of my head I can't seem to find my footing With all of this.

Trying to find a way to equate it in my mind I just can't seem to make the knowledge stay in line.

If I could find

This is a song I wrote a couple months ago.

One of these days I will get to the piano and record the music that goes with,

in the meantime, Here is my song.

If I Could Find

If I Could Find

A million reasons

from my mind.

 

If I could cope

There would be reason for your hope

 

If I could find

If I could Find

A reason to lose my mind

 

Than I could cope

So you could hope

All over again.

 

If I could dream

Things would be better than they seem

If I could dream

I wouldn’t be falling apart

at the seams.

 

But you try

You try to hide

How you hurt

 

But you seem

You seem

to breathe better

If I try

If I try

To cast out the hurt

 

If I try

Try to hide

How bad I hurt.