before my mother asked if I would be her caretaker
she had one before.
This is a woman I have come to abhor.
The daughter of her best friend
it seemed alright at first
But then my moms body started to shut down
and everyone said it was the end.
inpatient hospice
is where she was sent
and this woman would not let any of us in.
My mother was dying and I wasn’t allowed to say goodbye.
But My mom got better and wanted to go home
that’s when This woman abandoned her and left her all alone.
She wouldnt give me moms records
and refused all of moms calls
thinking back now
i think she was afraid to have mom know what She did to us all.
So I started out without the slightest clue
but between my mom and me
we somehow made it through
things got easier. it soon became routen.
We knew her cancer wasnt stopping
and miracles were coming to an end
but neither of us expected that this last chemo
would not be her friend.
It shut down her abdomin
and we raced to the hospital
once again.
all they could do this time was manage her pain.
for two weeks we were there. twenty hours a day
I was right beside her.
We heard rumors that the hospital
was gonna let her go
what do I do now?
where do you go?
thats when she told me
hospice for her home
was all ready to go
all we had to do
was let the woman know.
(This is when the insanity began
and how do I wish it would now end)
I called The woman who had set it up
and thats when she told me and mom
that she had to give her dream up.
No one could get there
100 acres 40miles outside of town
since her driveway is a riverwash
if it rained, help would be squashed.
Find a place in town she said
than call her back.
All mom wanted was to go home
but staying with me she would feel safe
she just hated leaving my father alone.
We called the lady and set it up
but the look on my mothers face made me
want to go throw up.
When I left her that night I hugged her tight
and vowed to myself that I would try to make it alright.
I called every agency under our sun
a little before 1am as the last one hung up
I had to face it to myself
on this i had not won.
Exsausted and sore
I sleplt through my alarms
and only woke up at 8:30
because my phone had charmed.
It was my mother and she sounded so happy
She told me that her old caretaker was there
and it was nice to finally talk to her
She was going to be discharged and since She was already there
did I want to just try to rest and let her take my mother home?
Thinking I could look for more places
and it would help alot
I said sure just as long as she made sure
hospice would be there on the spot
no letting her go without some medical shortstop.
next thing I know as I answer my phone
my mother is sobbing and asking why I wont let her go home
her voice was like a childs
and she sounded so confused
I tried to remind her what hospice said they could not do.
I hang up and call Hospice to say its a go for my home
that the hospital is about to discharge her
and someone there had to show.
The person I was speaking to seemed a little off
so I called my mothers social worker to help
get all this across.
Thats when I learned Her old caretaker was playing boss
She told everyone hospice wasnt needed and to just let her go home
it was all set, my mom was headed home.
I was told to get to the hospital right away
for She still had the legal papers that gave her sway.
i called That woman up as I raced for the door
told her I was on my way
and she wasnt needed anymore.
She told me she wasnt leaving
and there was nothing I could do
I said I had it, and she needed to go
her personal threat to me made me loose it
and my daughter grabbed me before I fell to the floor
shaking and screaming for help I tore down the road
I flew into the hospital yelling for security
She had left my mothers ward right before we arrived
Mom was so confused
I was a mess
and that woman was still there trying to turn things
when We finally left.
But much happened in between
that ive still got to get out yet.
Scarlet Luna-Mia Lombardi | Luna the moon Rose 